explode with love.

after an incredibly long week, i decided tonight would be a "me" night. i am so tired of seeing these boxes left unpacked in my apartment but i just didn't have the energy tonight to unpack and sort. i started watching Greys Anatomy from the start. so that was my show tonight. i made some amazing guac, did my nails and watched some Greys. i also surfed around on Pinterest and Facebook for a while. Tomorrow Timmer's best friend gets married. They are seriously so cute.

This summer is the summer of weddings. we have so many. and all of which are good friends of ours. each couple is so precious and innocently in love. it just makes you believe so much more that there is real, deep love. i mean, even the engagement pictures are just so revealing. they have pure love. they just love each other, plain and simple.

now i know this is hard to follow, but stay with me. 

lately Timmer and i have been spending quality time together and having some more meaningful conversations. which has been super fun. i love the guy. i love the way he thinks and how he processes things. i love how care free and kind he is. and over the last few weeks, i feel like the heart is just going to explode. i feel like i can't tell him enough how much i love and care for him. its like, frick, i love the pieces out of him, i just hope he understands the fullness of how i feel.

so, while he is doing wedding party activities for his insanely cute engaged friends, i am home enjoying so me time. which is good. but at the same time, i am so missing his company. alright, alright, i am probably just overly emotional, but Greys was really getting to me. the episode i was watching was about love and loss- and it really got to me. my word, i just don't know what i would do if i lost him. it would just crush me. 

enough of the sad talk... what Timmer and i have is so great. i hope people can see what we have by just looking at us. loving someone can be so scary, but i guess the feeling like you could burst of happiness is worth the risk of loss... 

la ta di da...explode with love.