easier said than done

it's hard to make touch decisions. thats why they call them TOUGH decisions. because those decisions are anything but easy. if anything, they are easier said than done. truth be told, more times than not those tough decisions are usually the right decisions. so you usually end up in a battle with yourself. mind vs heart. very rarely do i think i allow my mind to lose. its like having an intense argument with yourself. you know what you should do but its easier to not do it. which is the wrong approach.  i think we all can recall a time when we were caught between a rock and a hard place.

i found myself cornered recently. and it was tough. a huge part of me felt comfortable there. the downfall was there seemed to be that lump in the throat or that pit in the stomach that was screaming. telling me that if i dont do something now, its never going to go away. and lets be honest, we all have had that lump in the throat and the pit in the stomach and it is incredibly uncomfortable. but after a while you start to get used to it and come to terms with it but in the long run, it doesnt change. it doesnt get better.

the other part of me knew that i wasn't meant to stay there forever. the tough part is finding the strength to leave the corner - even if that means starting back at square one. starting over. and what a process that is. what an exhausting process.

we all have to venture on with life. we don't really have a choice. we either jump on board or get left behind. i suppose that is how we learn about ourselves. its hard though. leaving a comfort zone. whether its in regards to a new relationship, a new job, new school, new apartment.... its a new chapter. you have to leave the lump in the throat and the pit in the stomach behind. you look back at the previous chapter and such a big part of you cares so deeply but you know you dont have the energy to stay. looking forward can almost be as scary as looking back.  having faith that it will all work out in the end as God intended is like the carrot in front of the donkey. keep chasing after it and you'll eventually catch up with it.

take a deep breathe. pull yourself together. stand up straight [as my boss always tells me] and keep moving forward.

Follow your heart its never wrong [Sing for Me by Yellowcard]

la ta di da... it's easier said than done.