love from head to toe, inside and out.

so i went to a wedding this weekend. it was outside. perfect weather. perfect location. it was beautiful. it was peaceful. i have known the couple for over 4 years. they dated for about 6 years (give for take some). it completely boggled my mind though. and here is why.

this couple has known each other forever. they have experienced so much of their lives together. they faced hardships, joys, and overcame the mile stones like college and first jobs.

now, i have been 'in love'. i loved another so hard that it hurt. i have also been in a long term relationship before (many a times). but to look at this couple and know that they are 110% comfortable with each other, so in love that they would literally do anything for each other, it was mind boggling.

it has been a while since i had a stable, consistent relationship. almost 4 years now. it seems like forever ago that i knew a ounce of the love and the feelings that this couple feels for each other. that feeling of consistent love is foreign to me now. i knew what it was like and i quickly forgot.

i can't imagine what i will feel like on my wedding day. i hope i have a wedding day ;) but when and if i do, i hope that i smile from ear to ear the entire day, love from head to toe, inside and out for the one i marry.


i have also come to realize just how picky you have to be sometimes. dating to date is fun....for a while. but we are humans created in God's image. we were made to have a sense of belonging with eachother. we were made to express love towards one another and have the sense of being needed. i speak on behalf of my own experiences: everyone deserves to love and be loved by another. settling for less should not even cross your mind as an option. if you are dating someone or are with someone that doesnt give you the time of day, is selfish, only does what is convenient for them, or doesnt ever go out of their way for you- then why are you with them? don't you deserve the best? God will provide you with someone that matches your needs and fits into your life. He will send them your way when He is finished molding you into the person that He wants you to be.. if you aren't ready for that- then you know He is still working on ya ;)

i gained a bit of hope, that one day i might experience that love again. i hope its sooner rather than later, but then again, love is patient - is it not?