letting myself go.

the title of this post seems fitting for my blog. i haven't quite dug down deep into this topic, what it means to really let yourself go. or at least what i think it means to let yourself go. we'll see how focused i can keep this post ;)

let yourself go.

i wrote this poem, the one posted in the top blue box on my blog, when i was in 11th grade. it was in my creative writing class. the sole purpose of the assignment was to dig through hundreds of magazines, find words that stuck out to you, and form a poem.

i dont remember much about my thought pattern; why i chose the words and put them in the order that i did. i can't take credit for the words alone but i will take credit for the outcome. since it's creation, it has stuck with me. made the most sense to me out of all the other stories and poems that i had to write.

the phrase "let yourself go" really stuck out to me though. three words, yet powerful when you read them out loud, over and over again. let yourself go. let yourself be willing to love. let yourself be willing to hurt. to cry. to laugh. to heal. to move on. to forgive. to forget. to get out of your comfort zone. to make the most of your life. to have fun. to impact someone. to be inspired. to sweat. to fall. to get back up. to bleed. to appreciate the sun and flowers. to not hate. to be open. to be vulnerable. to not care! to be open minded. to voice your beliefs.

the list could go on forever. what holds you back and why? i think that we often go through life with too much caution. some of us go through life with not enough caution! but what i am saying is that, we have to be comfortable with who we are, in our own skin. no one else is exactly like yourself. find joy in that.

and if you can't seem to come to terms with who you are, then change. the most annoying thing to me is when someone complains up a storm but wont take action for changing it. i know we all complain, it's in our nature. but give it up. let yourself go. stop holding back from trying new things or trying old things again.

i seem to let go of myself a lot this last year. i let go of a few fears. i gained some maturity [i think :)] and i started to grow up. not because i wanted to but because i had to. i started to make new friend. i finally cut the strings to something heavy that has held me back for almost 4 years. i fully forgave some people. and i really realized that God's plan is unfathomable to all of us. i also realized that attending church i a must for me. :) i have had a lot of time to myself over the last 5 1/2 months of living by myself. it's been good. i was able to let myself go.

let yourself go.

say it aloud. say it again. and again. what does 'let yourself go' mean to you?

on a side note, i will leave you with this:

"May your unfailing love be my comfort, according to your promise to your servant" Psalm 119:76.