the memory is fading...

alright. so we all know that a certain young man has sent butterflies in my stomach and swept me off my feet [or something along those lines]. however, i have managed to be very forgetful - and thus i am apologizing for my lack of memory. see for the past few years, i have grown to worry about my schedule, my organization skills, my work, my plans after work, my weekend plans, my family and my friends. i have grown to be conscious of those things. and lets be honest, i am just mediocre at that.

over the last month and a half i am realizing how forgetful i am. i take things day by day. which is good. i have learned to function better by a day-by-day process. the downfall is that i agree to things and realize that i have double booked myself. [sounds like i need a personal assistant].

in no way am i complaining, but i now have two schedules to be aware of. which is great! i like staying busy but sometimes busyness gets the best [or worst] of me. and in two cases already, my nice young fella has received the shorter end of the stick. poor guy. what a terrible girlfriend i am. he deserves an award for being flexible and understanding.

what a hot mess this week has been. i have my hands in about 10 different pots at work and then trying to balance plans outside of work... sheesh! this gal is tuckered out.

i would use a calendar to help me keep track of things, but i dont like calendars. i would buy a pocket agenda thing for my purse, but i would forget to use it [and it would add 10lbs to my purse]. i would use my phone but that too, i would forget to use. relying on my memory has worked in the past, but i can see it beginning to diminish as life gets more "complicated".

i sit in front my of my outlook calendar as we speak and will jot down my upcoming events for the week. it will sync to my phone and it will beep when i am supposed to be someplace. yea, lets try and focus on using that for a while.

now, i have to get back to work. i have a ton to do and its not going to get done by itself. and i also have to send an email turning down a networking event that i agreed  to on the same night as B was going to make me dinner AND the same night i have to be in Frankenmuth for a work function. hmm... cant be in 3 places as once. need i mention the amount of guilt i have running through me? [sometimes i am too sensitive...but i know this will bother me for the next week...]

in light of this post, this is my sincere apology to B for having double booked you - again. i will make this up to you. thank you for being great.

la ta di da... the memory is fading.