i think i like today.

I think I like today
I think it's good
Its something I can't get my head around
[Angels & Airwaves]

the amount of joy that lives within me is indescribable. i mean i am just bubbling with happiness. like all in the world is right. everything else that i have ever wanted for the past two years just doesnt matter anymore.

i love my job.

seriously. i love it even when it kind of stinks some days. i love it because i am finding that i am good at it. i am really good at it. see i havent really been good at anything...like mastered some cool task or talent. i am not much of a reader so i didnt really like school. i am not good at math and i dont really care about history that much. i liked science because i could mix stuff together and call it a science experience. i didnt really go into college with a clue of what i wanted to do for the rest of my life. i enrolled in classes that i thought i might need in order to figure out my future plans - along the way of course - not really planned out like most people did. i thought i was sort of good and took an interest in marketing and advertising so i went with it. i got my job after graduation and was a weee bit terrified that i was in over my head.

and i was.

but i figured it out like i knew i could. i was motivated that i would beat this fear of being a newbie to the adult -work life. i obeyed my instincts, listened to my gut, trusted God and relied on what i knew. i was determined to be good at my job. i was determined not to fail but to learn and do better. i took this job and made it a career. this is mine and i can call it mine. i can look back at what i did, where i started at and can say that i am proud. i can say i am successful in my work. i can say that i am thankful for the fantastic position i have with an amazing company.

and today was one of those days that just made me gleam with happiness. for starters i impressed myself. i know, i know, who cares about that. but let me express my deep, deep dislike for numbers. finance. accounting. and anything that is left brained. [or is it right?]. i thrive on creativity. color. things that are abstract and bold. working with numbers is like watching wet paint dry on a wall. boring. yet necessary. [i almost fell asleep just typing that.] but to my extreme surprise, i had a teeny tiny bit of motivation the last week to really nail down a proposed marketing budget. this thing had been the dark cloud over my head for the past.. oh, i dont know... 4 months. i knew it was there, that it had to be done, and that it was my job to create it. but this cloud was so painfully annoying - it lingering over me, laughing and pointing at me - that i finally shoved it in the corner and the budget and i duked it out. now the match isnt over with but i am predicting that i am in the lead. aha!!!! i conquered the budget!

i also got this sweet to headset this week. [okay pause and lets transition to geek-speak now] this headset is so stinking sweet. to me at least. i have this software that i downloaded called Jing. its free. and not too bad for free software. anywho, i have been wanting to do some sweet marketing pieces for our blog using this software. the downside is that i am now the Vanna White of CBI. my face turns instantly red when i hear my voice. and to think it will be on YouTube. ha! - oh well. its cool regardless.

and now for the best part of my day......... i get CS5!!!!!!! oh happy happy joy joy!!! no one really knows how incredibly awesome this is unless you have dealt with an outdated CS2 and [the dreaded] Microsoft Publisher. what a headache. but that is all over with and i could not be happier and more excited for work! i will be able to do so many new cool things for work! ahhh!!!

i know this is random and unconnected to the above text, but i just wanted to say that Eminem is a very talented artist. this is looking past is explicit lyrics. the fact that he can rap as well as he does and have it be as creative as it is... i applaud him

also here is a list of people/bands i would LOVE to see in concert:
Angels & Airwaves
Cage the Elephant
Florence and the Machine
Manchester Orchestra
Adele
Yellowcard
Fallout Boy (ha! don't laugh)
30 Seconds to Mars
Thriving Ivory
Silversun Pickups
Cute is What We Aim For
Anberlin
Mumford and Sons
...and theres more of course...


la ta di da...i think i like today.