Drink the water, get married...

"You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived."

This week has been incredibly nuts for me. i felt like i was running non-stop between work, home, friends, errands, etc. etc. and it all caught up to me as i hit a wall and felt exhausted all day sunday.

i want to talk about the singleness vs the marriage topic. okay so i went to a nice little christian college. it was small and quaint. and marriage was something that happened to you when you drank the water [not really but it sure seemed like it]. it was my joke that you had to be engaged or married to receive honors at graduation. if that were true, you would read in the graduation program that i graduated with NO honors ;-)

i may have done things a bit differently if i had the choice but for the most part i wouldn't change a thing. i know everyone says this but it really did form the person i am today. most of my college experience i was hurting more than living to the fullest. i turned bitter for a good portion of my years there which didnt help hearing topic of....MARRIAGE!

yay for marriage! it really is something wonderful [from what i am told] but when you are in a place in your life where consistent talk on marriage is all you hear, you cant help but plug your ears and sing "LA LA LA LA LA LA" and think "clearly this doesnt pertain to me since i am not even dating someone seriously".

true. BUT it does still pertain to me. and it took me a really long time to realize that these sermons that i have heard over the last few years on what a Godly marriage should be, is part of God's way of preparing me for marriage. true i am not dating anyone seriously [or at all for that matter] and there are times where the marriage chat drives me bonkers for not being able to contribute to the conversation but it is still my responsibility to perk up and stay tuned with the lessons. i may need them later.

i have this track record too which is irritating. out of the xx amount of gents i have had the pleasure of dating, at least 5 of them are married now. on the other hand, i have had 6 roommates in college [gals that i actually shared a room with] and all 6 are married now. [you dont want me to count the total of friends that are married....it would take too long] i keep missing the memo! i joke that it's my purpose in life: to prepare others for marriage. so far ive been doing pretty good.

anywho, a bit off track [you should be used to that by now] the pastor today spoke on marriage. i chose to listen though as i am trying to change my ways. i am trying to listen to God and i am trying to weed out the bad and the good in my life. "Lose the bad. Keep the good."

I keep grumbling about not having found my gent. but the thing is, i have to keep making these changes towards a better and healthier life. the more progress i make in growing a stronger faith that God will provide for me, that He makes all things possible like the verses say, the closer i will get to finding my gent that God has prepared for me.

i have to play my part. keep taking the right steps forward and avoid taking the steps backward. and the hardest part: be patient.

"But now you must rid yourselves of all such things ..."

la. ta. di. da. --> thats all for tonight.