chipping away at the hearts desires

"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart" - Psalms 37:4

it's been a while since i have really blogged. last week was hectic [as usual] and i have been trying to work up a legit entry. so i think i have one...

i downloaded this app on my phone that gives me a devotional/daily verse and blog type entries from this guy regarding verses and topics. i have struggled for some time praying for God to grant me the desires of my heart. it was always a tough concept for me to grasp since i didnt fully understand what it meant. my mom would always tell me to pray for the desires of my heart to be revealed to me.

after i downloaded the app i was playing around with what it had to offer. i came across this entry by this guy on Psalms 37:4 [which is stated above]. it really helped me understand what and how to pray for the desires of my heart to be known to me [providing what this guy wrote is legit- made sense to me though]

here is an portion of what he wrote:

"...if we focus on God's nature, if we love God with all that we are, we'll discover that the desires of our heart will be transformed. ...we will start to yearn for the things of God, for His truth and peace, for His justice and mercy. Our desires will begin to reflect God's own desires for us and for this world. Thus, we will want what God wants, and He will give that which is according to His will."

I guess this reverts back to my entry on prayer a bit. but i guess what i got out of it [the entry that i read on this app] was that i need to pray for God's will to be continually revealed to me, for me to want the things that God wants in my life. Sometimes i fall into praying selfish prayers, for things to go my way on my timing, but something that i am really learning the hard way is that i can't control my life because my life is not mine to control, it is God's. and i can continue to pray for the material things and the relationships that i think i need in my life, but they might not be what God has in store for me. i have had the tendency to pray a prayer for a week or two, not see any results [to my immediate knowledge] then do things my own way, take that control factor back.

so by doing this, am i really trusting God? no. not at all. if i dont feel lead by Him to do something, to take some kind of action, then i shouldnt do anything, i should wait and continue to pray...right? [bit of a rabbit trail..you are probably used to it by now though]

anyways, i really liked the verse and entry that the guy wrote. it made sense to me that the desires of my heart should be for what God's wants in my life and that He will do marvelous things in my life that i couldnt even imagine, if i trust in Him, give Him the complete control over my life and have peace in knowing that He is caring for me and will provide me with the people and the things in life that i NEED not WANT [because there is a huge difference... i want many things in life but i should want the things i need and want the Lord to grant me the things that will bring glory to Him] - [that was probably the longest sentence ever... sorry]

okay, anyways, moving on, i have been going to the young adults group at my church now for a few weeks and have really enjoyed it! it has been great to joke and laugh and meet new people, new people that are my age and deal with the same things in life that I do. its great too, to talk out the verses and not be afraid to ask questions [which has been a first for me]. these people are great and if you are one of the few people that i have come to know that are in this group, and are reading this, i want to say that you rock and i am thankful for you. so glad that i get to hang out with you guys until i'm 35! [ha!]

not sure if i mentioned this [i might have 2 posts ago] but we are going through the 5 love languages for singles, may sound corny but its been great... eye opening i guess.

welp i suppose thats all this ol' noggin has to offer for this pleasant sunday night...sooooo

la ta di da... thats a wrap.