blessings and chaos

So I haven't blogged in forever and a day. Sorry. My bad. I hardly have time to do my dishes, or take my trash out, let alone blog. The holidays were good. It was a little stressful. Work had my mind a little distracted plus I was spending a whole lot of time with my boyfriend- which was great. Don't get me wrong. But it was the first time in a LONG time that I spent any significant amount of time with a boyfriend OVER the holidays. The holidays are an important time. I mean you spend a lot of time with family and in close quarters and it's just a lot of mixed emotions. All of it was great. grand. wonderful. and we had a lovely time together and with our families.

There. I have covered my holiday posts :)

Now onto bigger and better things. I have noticed something about myself lately and my boyfriend was kind enough to verbally point it out to me while we are dinner the other day (God bless the man, he is a wonderful man). He said mentioned it in the kindest way. He really knows how to communicate with me. He's just a gem.

Anyways....I get stressed. Real easily. Like if things don't go according to plan, then I get a little quiet, a little snappy [when I do talk] and a little warm. This is the stress building up within me and I don't know how to deal with it. Stress hasn't really been a problem for me in the past. I don't know why all of a sudden it's affecting me, but it is, and I am fully aware of it and I am also aware I need to manage it- because clearly I need to do something different.

So, I read this blog post from this daily devotional website called Girlfriends of God. The first day I signed up for it, I read the daily post and it was about how this woman had a million things going and was happy but didn't know why she was depressed. So she made a list of all she has going on in her life. Now, as a disclaimer, I am not depressed - just worn down. Want to make that clear.

Okay. SO here is a list of what I have going on in my life. All these activities I count as blessings but nonetheless, I am tired. I need a break. This afternoon I was sitting at my desk, and I got distracted by my hair... this thought ran through my head:

"man, I like my new conditioner. My hair smells good. Like I can smell my hair without even trying. Did I shower today? Or just wash my hair?.... hmmm... I don't really remember getting up this morning....interesting."

I couldn't remember if I showered or just washed my hair.... really? I mean I seriously had to sit and think about how I got up this morning, what I did and everything! So weird to not remember at the snap of your fingers. I came to the conclusion that I showered because I remember the shower plug dropping from the faucet and it makes this loud noise [and if I forget to drop the plug manually, then its super loud and a bit frightful.] I digress.

Each week I do the following:

• Work
• ESL Planning
• ESL Class
• Working Out
• Small Group
• Bowling League
• Seeing my Boyfriend
• Catching up with Friends
• Visiting my Family and the new babes
• Reading for Leadership group at work
• Reading for Marketing 

On top of that, I have to do the "adult responsibilities" like:

• Pay my rent
• Pay my electric bills
• Take out trash
• Cook
• Clean
• Laundry
• Do the dishes
• Get groceries
• Pay my loans

I'm tired. so.very.tired. But at the end of the day, I am thankful. I am happy. I am blessed. And that, my friends, is what gets me through each day and each hectic week!

la ta di da... blessings and chaos.